Final(ly)

Oh wow.  What a day.

It would be an understatement to say that I am a woman with many "issues."  They are complex and varied, and most of them revolve around sex.  Sorry, folks, it's the truth.  I could easily delve further into the details, but I will spare you the TMI this time.  Today, coincidentally, many of those issues were brought to light (again) and I found myself exploring the past and getting super emotional.  No, it certainly doesn't help that I am on my period.  I have realized so many things about myself over the past year (or so) and I continue to learn more with each step I take.  Today was a very contemplative day.

Then, this afternoon, I decided to go online and "check out" my case record.  Low and behold, I AM DIVORCED.  The filing is official as of November 17.  One year and one day after he filed for divorce, it is finally final.  Mixed emotions abound on an already emotional day.  How on earth do I proceed?

I think the news is mostly happy.  Closure, as they say, should help with healing.  I have definitely been looking forward to being "case closed" on Rick.  Now I am free to move on with my life, unencumbered (if you don't count 6 little monkeys hanging around!) hahaha.  That was a joke.  But really, I can go forward, and so can he.  Officially.

Breaks my heart a little more though. Looking forward to snuggling my kiddos when they get home in another hour.